Heart_Broken at 5:00 AM and 3:30 PM

Hold your head up child, why you keep your eyes at the floor? I  looked in  her eyes and see the passage of trials and tribulation that bought her this far." How you ga'wain see where you going with your head down?" She loved me you know!!  Her skin the perfect shade of bronze,  eyes full of wisdom, a depth beyond what my childish mind could understand. She scrubbed the floors, while the others went to school.

The accordion came home with her, blue and white. The man in  San Fernando played it well, "I want you to have it and play it someday", She said. I lost it in Brooklyn, I never looked back!! I had to find the Union of streets, all connected to my past, my hope, my home. I returned once, but love did not live there. I smiled the tears away, as I saw my G'Ma's big warm arms open wide. Oh!! how I missed laying in her laps when I got sick, intentionally and stayed home from school. Sometimes It's complex to understand why they leave us ever. 

He smiled and never spoke much, yet; I hear his voice like thunder beneath my footsteps; guiding, admonishing me to follow not his path, wow!!  "but I don't care, you are my everything" I would say". When you coming back, next time? This time never baby, no more I can't come back this time anymore. I'll keep a light on, so you can see where to find me, daddy. Not this time baby, I'm going forever. Daddy love's you, you are my one and only girl. I cry like a helpless child; broken hearted. The sun went down and refuse to come back up. In despair, sometimes confused, but still strong, "keep your head up"!! they'd say, and I listen, wipe my tears and clean my wounds with courage, because Tu Moyo Anajua (The Heart Knows)"only the heart knows" Ni Atatokea Asubuhi.

In Memory of my Sweet, Grandmother Lorna.Muriel Smith September 20th, 1921 - July 19thth, 2006   My Loving Daddy Charles Theophilus Nanton  January 2nd. 1943 - February 11th. 2012